Spiritual Awakening

How I fell mattered. I was awakened by a consciousness larger than my own and fell through a state of grace that was euphoric back to a former state of shame. A break from myself that most people don't encounter, followed by many more similar experiences to set me free. We need serious motivation to follow through with the teachings of the program. It's challenging work, but if you've experienced any kind of relief while doing so, it's a pretty good indication that you're on the right path.

Like a gap in an approaching storm we can ride through the approaching cloud bank to settle down on the lee side before taking our rest for another day, but share your experienced whenever you can to keep the memory fresh in your mind. The stress we live with that causes these abberations to occur can and does return and failing to make use of our knowledge may prevent us from relieving the frustration of others who may also be suffering.

Opening up about shame based behavior and sharing what I knew resulted in more information about my behavior that I did not recall, such as my failure to respond to my friends injury. Ironically, the shame that resulted was the result of examining scar tissue I could not fathom, like what seemed like stitches in my perineum (My next door neighbor on the other side of our house Mary suggested ruling out curses and binding opposition.)