Memorable Events during the 1980s

1980: Fell to my knees in a shower as I recalled a memory that was repressed while taking my inventory.

Fall 1981: Disciplined my brother while medicated on tranquilizers and drinking by striking him when he refused to go to bed by 10:30 PM (my mother's expectations of me; in this case, to get him to bed by 10:30 PM, weighed heavily upon me by that time).

1982: Met with my first lover to go to a party where friends were celebrating in a park to rent a motel room to retreat to.

1982: Started experiencing new energy as a result of daily meditation and guidance from another good friend.

1983/84: Started working night shifts on the local freight docs.

1984: Went to Northwestern to study Complementary Medicine.

1984: Enjoyed a new sense of freedom while living on my own and returning to school.

1984: Returned to the motel room I visited with my first lover to spend the night with the sister of a woman who was to bear my first child. She is a twin to a brother that died and by sharing that warm room with her on a cold night I was able to discover a kind of comfort and intimacy I'd never known before.

1986: Shortly after hosting a Christmas Party for my family, my lover attempts suicide and I find myself groping on my hands and knees on the floor of my apartment out of grave concern for circumstances I couldn't understand.

July 1989: My firstborn child is born in St. Paul, shortly after breaking water at Washburn Fair Oaks Green Space in Minneapolis.